High School me struggled with my body. At the time I was a dancer and I loved it. It was my passion, but my body didn't fit the passion. Balanchine had created this image of these tiny, flat-chested dancers and that was the very opposite of me. No matter what I did I was never going to be that. Being constantly told that my arms and hands were beautiful, and that I had the poise of a ballerina didn't help. My feet were perfect but my body wasn't. I found myself not getting anywhere, knowing that I would never be a ballerina in a company no matter what my skills were. That was devastating. Something that helped ease the pain, and eventually helped me become more confident was my choreography skills. I found my way through by helping others dance, winning awards and being acknowledged for my choreography up and down the west coast. It healed my broken heart and gave me confidence. Of course my life as a military life has taken me slightly off course, making it more difficult for me to get employment as an instructor or choreographer. Having to rebuild my name after so much time has passed, who is going to give me the chance to show who I am. But that's another post entirely. This one is about me and my body.
Having "struggled" so to speak with my weight wasn't really a thing until later in college and when I got married. Not dancing as much as I once did really changed things. Whoa!! I knew that I would always have to work harder but it was manageable. Then, I had kids. This is a story that I'm sure many woman can attest to. I didn't gain a ton of weight when I was pregnant because I already wasn't skinny. I gained anywhere from 10-15lbs. But the problem is that no matter what that weight wouldn't come off. So the lie of "don't worry, breastfeeding will help that weight come off" is just that, a lie. There's so much more to that then simply breastfeeding = weightloss. There are so many things that mess with women's heads. Sizes keep changing, we are continually assaulted (yes, I said assaulted) with images on TV, magazines and movies that show what men and women want to see. Or what the 'Industry' thinks we want to see. We blame it on oversexualization or men not respecting women. But yo, women of the world...you can say no! If we all stood up and said no at the same time we would see a change!! Have normal sizes in stores people!! And of all the same clothes! don't give me different styles or clothing or segregate me off in another section! What makes you think I want to wear something different than someone who is a size 4? Most of the time I don't.
So here I am a, a grown woman of 33 and I still struggle with how I look. I obsess about what I'm eating, and how much I should be working out. When I hurt my ankle I couldn't walk and the I gained almost 10 lbs in a month or so, simply because I wasn't moving. Our bodies are crazy and there's so much involved in our weight gain and loss. Stress and our hormones kill us continually! Thankfully, I know I am loved and my husband worships me. If he didn't I'd be worse off I know. I've finally gotten to the point where I can identify health vs simply trying to get skinny, something I know I'll never be. So I'm thankfully for this opportunity to try Nutrisystem...but to also get a valuable education on eating and what is good for my body. That is what I love about this program. I've already learn so much and that is the point. They don't want you to be on it forever! They want you to learn how to do this for yourself, and that I can get behind.
So join me on my journey! Follow me on Instagram Stories (@Rhechristine) and on Snapchat (@Rhechristinr <--- notice the r at the end instead of the e) to see how I do and to cheer me on. I need some good cheerleaders!!!
here's the before pics folks!!!! I'm being me, BRAVELY!!
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